We are in the ‘core’

OK, so if you haven’t seen the movie Twister, you might not understand why I titled this post “..in the core”. In the Twister movie, there were these people chasing storms and when they would be so close to the storms , it would be too late to turn back and they would say that they were in the core of the storm. When they were in this, everything was happening and they had no real control, they just had to ride the storm out.  The more that I thought of this movie, the more that I thought that it was really like getting ready for a party. You know that something is going to happen but your’e not sure what it is going to be. And then when you get so close to the end and you can’t turn back, you find yourself in the ‘core’. When you find yourself in it,  it’s too late to  do anything about anything,  and you just have to keep going. You know that it’s something that you’ve been looking forward to and you’ve been chasing to get ready for it for some time. You also know that there will be things getting  in you way, and it seems like some days  you just might be sucked up in the sky if you’re not careful.  Because we are two weeks out to William’s graduation party – I think we’ve just entered the part where you can’t look back. You can feel the tension building and you start to make fast decisions. You also re-evaluate everything as you are going, and make cuts to some projects where necessary. For some reason today, I found myself realizing that we are so close to the party and  I just might not get everything done that I wanted to. And to be honest, I was more than OK with it. Isn’t that weird? I bet you would’ve guessed that I would be freaking out by now (and that would have been my guess also) but I don’t think I am.  Maybe it’s because I’ve been able to check stuff off my list and I’m feeling kinda smug about that. Or maybe it’s just that I’ve come to realize that not everything really has to be done.  Yesterday I spent the day with my Mom, my sisters, and their daughters, and realized that it’s not what you’re hoping to get done in time that really matters, but what you do with your time that does matter. We took the day off and went to a really fun dinner theater, and spent the whole day just relaxing and having a good time. So for now, even though I am not as worried for the party that maybe I should be,  tomorrow I’ll get back on track about what is still on my lists. But for tonight? – my plans are to hit the sack and call it a night, and try to keep my feet on the ground ….at least for now.